ruined for not but you

where can i go to hide from you
where can i go that you won't find me
where can i go that you won't seek me steadfastly
where can i go
where can i go
you've ruined me

i see in you in every vine
the sun betrays my shade
my fingers move for you
your face moves for me

like a little girl who still believes
that all boys want is to kiss me tenderly
the dark room he woos me to
can surely hold no danger
my heart would not betray me
with this giddy assurance of my desirability

what good is awakening
when all i feel is naive again
the passionate innocence of propositions i cannot abide
like a virgin promising the world with her eyes
only to be discovered as a tease
unable to follow through on the posture of her mind
i want to be held again
clutched by the securities of a fundamental truth

i'm a runaway who can't pay her bills
what will i resort to when you have truly left me
what do i desire
if not to be smothered by your countenance

you've ruined me
i can resent you no longer