We have not conceived you yet, but I have dreamt of your furious love, disarming smile, and adventurous curiosity. I can feel your tender weight pressed against my heart. I can hear your deep, dreaming breaths as your little fingers clench and relax on my shoulder.
I have wept deeply and often in my longing for you. I weep even now. The only solace I can muster is in writing this letter to you. A letter, which I am confident you will someday read. You are my treasure. My true ambition. You are my words, my song, my dance.
My soul contracts with the desire to gaze into your precious face. The thought of your gaze meeting mine in our first embrace feels likely to consume me. How often my thoughts wander to you. I would weave every hope and passion into your hair, if only to see you fly.
I want to be the one you run to when you're scared. I want to be the one you hide behind when you're feigning shyness. I want to watch you spin in your new sundress. I want to carry yo
u up to bed with your head nestled on my shoulder, your arms hung limp, your heart keeping time with mine. I want to stay up all night by your crib, so I don't miss one breath.It will be such a blessing, such a privilege to share 9 months of our lives as one. You father has told me that he would carry you if he could. He will watch over us as we grow together. I was born to be your mother. I choose to give you life and in so doing offer you my own. Nothing you could do could ever separate you from my love.
I'm trying to be patient, but I am so eager to meet you. Know that my heart has already conceived you.
With all the love that I possess,
Your Mom
6 comments:
You get your spinning from your mother. Shyness from me and of course the disarming smile.
Thank you, my love.
Cypress,
There is much about you I don't know. I don't know your smile, your laugh, your cry. I don't know your eye color (but I'm hedging on green, like mine). I don't know your dreams or your love. But it is possibly the greatest part of this life, the not knowing. I am anxious to be surprised by you.
-Auntie
I too await your arrival with great anticipation. My eyes water now as they will when I see your face for the first time. You are a very lucky child to be brought into this world by these to very wonderful people. We will have fun together.
Your mother's mother, until I know what I you will call me.
My dear grandaughter,
You are one very lucky girl to have parents who already love you SO much. They will be the best parents one little girl could ask for because they have waited so long for you.
Will you have red curly hair?or black straight hair?
I can hardly wait to meet you.
Love, Mima
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